tag:lostson.blog.co.uk,2009-11-22:/MokoFeed2009-11-22T07:22:05+01:00tag:lostson.blog.co.uk,2006-04-20:/2006/04/20/lost_son_poem~742657/SerendipLady2006-04-20T18:12:30+02:002006-04-21T19:27:34+02:00 <p>Anthony's dad collected him this evening (6th April) He is 13 years old.</p> <p>Anthony finally left (taking his clothes) on 10th April.</p> <p>I wrote this poem today because I wanted him to know how much he is missed....</p> <p>L O S T S O N</p> <p>When I first met you, your eyes were wide and trusting<br> You captured my heart with just one gaze<br> When you were snug in your cot at night<br> I thought my heart would burst with joy at your perfection</p> <p>When you were barely able to sit<br> You stacked bricks with quiet precision<br> You hardly talked until you were two<br> But I anticipated your every need</p> <p>I lost you for a while when you went to school<br> But home you would return with stories flowing freely<br> And I knew that you still felt our special bond<br> So I laughed alongside you and watched you grow</p> <p>You questioned my decisions now but, with love<br> I would explain the differences between right and wrong<br> And you would smile that lazy smile<br> We were mother and her beloved son again</p> <p>Over the years I have gazed at you with such pride<br> I thought those moments would just keep expanding<br> As you grew into the man I'd seen from behind those eyes<br> And I could watch from the sidelines, and smile</p> <p>But today, when I gazed into those sullen eyes<br> Anger flares within your darkened orbs<br> As a sneering face stares back at me<br> Daring me to question the stranger that you've become</p> <p>But in those eyes I saw a cry for help<br> A 'boy' not yet a 'man' suffering silently<br> And the mother that I am could not ignore its message<br> So I sent you away to set you free</p> <p>The mother who was spellbound at your birth - still lives!<br> She did not walk away - her love didn't die!<br> She did not swap her coat of caring for one of distain<br> But she could not turn a blind eye to your pain</p> <p>One day, when the anger you will not speak of, recedes<br> You will see the same mother looking back at you<br> And you will see, at last, through her eyes<br> What it has cost to lose her son this way.....</p> <p>I love you Anthony,</p> <p>Mummy </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://lostson.blog.co.uk/2006/04/20/lost_son_poem~742657/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>tag:lostson.blog.co.uk,2006-04-20:/2006/04/20/lost_son~742554/SerendipLady2006-04-20T17:36:24+02:002006-04-20T17:36:24+02:00 <p>Today : The unthinkable happened.</p> <p>Today : I lost my son.</p> <p>Today : I accepted I had lost him at least 2 years ago.</p> <p>Today : I try to encapsulate WHAT that loss entails.</p> <p>Today : Is the beginning of tomorrow; the end of yesterday but the start of a new beginning for him. </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://lostson.blog.co.uk/2006/04/20/lost_son~742554/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>